I am sitting here with the 2 oldest kidlets watching bits and pieces or George Shrinks, while my baby (who is almost not a baby anymore) is having a nap, drinking my coffee that i have honestly reheated 5 times and i seem to have an eerie sense of calm and peace. Which for me doesn't come around very often.
Things have been very stressful for me lately. I have had 5 people that are very close to me get diagnosed with cancer in the past few months and its a hard pill to swallow. We are all young and good people who don't deserve this, but i know that whether you are a good person or not has no bearing on whether or not you get sick, but i think it should. I really believe in Karma and that what you put out you get back but sometimes i think old Karma has a strange way of working!!
I think the lesson that we all have to learn is how to deal with bad situations and learn from them and not let them destroy you or control you. I have learned that no matter what, your family and friends are the most important things that you can have and so is being true to yourself.
I'll admit i have not always been the best mom and wife, sometimes i am cranky or i yell over something so stupid and meaningless or i don't get to do something i promised i would do and then i feel awful about it and i am making a conscious effort to STOP, STOP, STOP and live more in the moment with my kids and husband. So far it feels wonderful. I have let go of all the bad feelings and the remorse of not being perfect and have become a much better person for it.
And now i am going to go for a refill and enjoy the rest of my carrot cake scone with cream cheese icing (that a dear friend that i see way to little of made) and was brought to me by another great friend. Then i have to get off the hiney and hang out the clothes. Have an amazing day everyone!!
Sarah
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